So I realized, that the point of trying to write a book, is not to please others, but to please myself. I don't see how that is helping my writing process, or should i say processes! Writing when your in the mood doesn't always work, when you stop being in that mood... because then you've stopped writing. And the only thing that will restart it, is to be in that same mood. And then you move on, another book, another stop, another book, and it keeps on going. If I ever find time (and the right mood) to finish them, i suppose i will try and get them published. But hey, no one ever said it would be easy...well...they wouldn't if i knew anyone who could have the grounds to make that opinion. Writing a book, to me, is kind of like writing a blog, pour your heart out, stop and start, find inspiration, whine and worry, wonder who would read it, wonder why you started,... and for us underage's like me, wish you actually liked alcohol, and it was legal for you to drink it, so you could sit at your desk, with a big glass of red wine, and ponder. Ponder what exactly? and why red wine? Well for starters, you would ponder why on earth you decided to make a fourth main character that you are subconsciously basing off of yourself, and also, red wine, because, well I suppose it goes better with the taste of sleep deprivation and insanity then white wine, or hard liquor.

Have you ever written something at 1am? I don't see the difference between the twilight hours and the middle of the day. The walls don't crumble down around me and unleash insomniactic (i think) creativity. If delusions make for good books, then I am way too sane to be writing one. Well, i think about this sometimes, think about what would occur say, if my books all became popular teen novels. I suppose the money would be nice, and i don't think my stuff is THAT bad...well it probably wouldn't be if I had the level of concentration required to finish it.

So tonight I leave you with a question (go off with a bottle of Merlot and ponder it if you wish)
Would it be better to be rich? or intelligent? (relevance is unnecessary in my world)

Night Owls and Circadian Rhythms

I am such an insomniac! Over the past few weeks I have been staying up so late and not being able to get to sleep at all. During the summer I wouldn't mind but right now it is terrible! I have finals coming up and I need to go to bed earlier, my dad brought me back these special glasses from his colleague to help me get some rest.

So apparently they block blue-light and that is also supposed to help people with ADHD so if I have that too then great! They affect an individual's circadian rhythm (What is that?) and spur melatonin release (the sleep hormone). When put on and worn two hours before sleep they increase the circadian rhythm to help you sleep. After a whole lot of scientific jargon, basically it means that by blocking blue light, you get sleepier then if you just turned off the lights.

Amazingggg... Well I haven't tried them so I am definitely going to and then I will post a review on them to show you guys if they work. They are fairly new and apparently they cost $40-$50 but I think my dad got them free from his friend (some scientist connection I guess) but if you think about what they promise it seems like a good enough price for me. I will test these out for a week and then I will review them, also I will use them during exam week and tell you if I thought it affected that, with all the stress and stuff. I'll see you later.

Jenny.